As I was worshipping tonight, I began to become fearful of the Lord giving up on me as I was receiving correction. This instantly hardened my heart and I stopped receiving correction. I knew that it was God's mercy that he correct us (Hebrews 12) and to stop this was not God. As I continued to worship and confront what was happening, God began to minister the following versus to my heart:

Matthew 25: 24-30

(24) Then he which had received the one talent came and said, Lord, I knew thee that thou art an hard man, reaping where thou hast not sown, and gathering where thou hast not strawed:
(25) And I was afraid, and went and hid thy talent in the earth: lo, there thou hast that is thine.
(26) His lord answered and said unto him, Thou wicked and slothful servant, thou knewest that I reap where I sowed not, and gather where I have not strawed:
(27) Thou oughtest therefore to have put my money to the exchangers, and then at my coming I should have received mine own with usury.
(28) Take therefore the talent from him, and give it unto him which hath ten talents.
(29) For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath.
(30) And cast ye the unprofitable servant into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

God showed me that I was just as the man with one talent in verse 26 was. I realized that this was not the Fear of the Lord (Isaiah 11:3) but fear that was crippling me from believing God and I could read the consequences of this. I was also reminded of Psalm 53:5 "There were they in great fear, where no fear was: for God hath scattered the bones of him that encampeth against thee: thou hast put them to shame, because God hath despised them." I was in fear where no fear was, and I could read what happened next here as well. As God ministered these verses, He began to correct my heart and I started to overcome.

Where did this fear come from? It came from self-righteousness, when we try to obey God with our own understanding we are in trouble, righteousness is by faith not our intellect. I was walking in my head and not in faith and as a result I could not receive the ministry God had intended. As we continued to worship I began to overcome more and more, and then I began to overcome many other things. As I sit here writing this testimony I am reminded of I John 4 "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love." My fear was tormenting me, and was stopping my love from being perfected, as I overcame my fear left because perfect love casteth out fear. I thank God for his mercy. God Bless.

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